Worst Blogger Ever

I should probably get the "Worst Blogger Ever" award. It has been forever since I posted anything! Yesterday, a coworker told me I seemed like one of those people who journals a lot. HA! Sooooo not me. At least I'm not disciplined about it anyway.

Even though I don't regularly journal, I am a rather introspective person. Around this time of year I start thinking about the past year and evaluating it... its sort of an unconscious habit I noticed a couple of years ago. What has this year been like? Happy? Fun? Challenging? What are some recurring themes? What are some favorite memories? Am I different from a year ago? How? Mostly, these thoughts are just kind of at the back of my mind and I never get them out on paper. I also tend to analyze the past, but not use it well to plan for the future. I rarely get past some vague mental ideas of what I want to do (mostly at work - sad!) in the next quarter or so... there I go using work terminology. Seriously - I need a life, or rather to more enthusiastically participate in the one I have.

Here's some thoughts on this year:

Challenging - I made a rather serious mistake at work earlier this year as well as several what I would term errors in judgment; saying the wrong thing or not saying what I should have. Office politics can be a quagmire. I also realize I spend a lot of time correcting errors - my own or others' mistakes. The value of doing something right the first time is something I thought I already knew; taking responsibility for my own mistakes is something I didn't expect to be as difficult as it was. I have also been challenged by several people in different spheres of my life to take a serious look at the direction I should take with my life. Education, career change, church change, online match sites, and a new car have all been batted around in my thoughts and in discussion with those who know me well.

Humbling - I have already mentioned my mistakes. Along with those lessons, I've watched some people around me go through some difficult situations that don't have a solution, but simply must be endured. I think part of maturing is seeing things from the other person's perspective and imagining their burden on my shoulders. People carry heavy stuff.

Some favorite memories:
Hanging out with married friends (turns out it isn't as weird as I thought it was going to be)
Memorial Day trip to Granbury with Kelli and Becky L
Holding many new babies - Ava, Jake, Korben and Brynley
Becky H telling us she was pregnant (can't wait to meet you Maggie!)
Laptop for my birthday
Test driving cars with Dad
Laughing with Addy at her story about the cousin dressed as Santa falling off the roof
Addy baking me a cake for my birthday
Laughing with Addy and Kelly F about the fact that I can't tell a joke
Spilling Dr. Pepper in the driver's seat of my brother's car - its only funny to me


Ok maybe tomorrow I'll come up with some goals for next year. :)